I'm sitting here with my coffee, the fan is blowing on me but it is not really all that hot. It's been a very pleasant morning, for August, here in Livermore. There are no clouds in the sky. The temperature is in the mid 80's Fahrenheit. I had read "the news" and was making coffee and heard in my head, DJ playing The 5th Dimension's "Wedding Bell ( Read more... )

For some reason this evening, Internal DJ decided to start playing Liz Phair: "Extraordinary." I like the song and I went to go find it on YouTube and play it. I used to love hearing it on the radio, when I still listened to the radio. It's funny, I go get videos on YouTube as the go-to, instead of looking them up on Spotify. I suppose it may have ( Read more... )

"It takes a lot of work to grow enough to tolerate intense intimacy and eroticism, and accept that life is both hard and sweet."
- David M. Schnarch, Ph.D Constructing the Sexual Crucible p. 173

It is fascinating to me how I can be talking to someone and if I'm present, and focused, it is possible for me to become aware that I have caught a glimpse of their complexity. I've seen a pattern that has not been completely consciously apparent to me before.

I was talking to L. listening to her complain about some difficulty in communicating with ( Read more... )

I'm 59 years old and I'm two decades divorced from nearly two decades of relationship and marriage to one woman, I'm the father of children grown to adulthood. I'm on a couple of dating apps. I date women roughly my age. It is interesting to read for what women say they are looking, in terms of a relationship.

There are women on these apps who ( Read more... )

I was reading earlier and catching up with some friends here when I found an entry by one of my LJ friends, khanadasc, talking about the regrettable exodus from LiveJournal and emigration to Farcebook. I suspect that she is flirting with the idea of picking up the digital pen again and writing here.

The problem of Facebook came to mind. She had made some ( Read more... )

I was watching this stand-up comic on YouTube. She was finding humor in the struggle to confront her parents or at least have uncomfortable conversations with them. I read some interesting comments on the page, from others who were relating. One person wrote: "When your parents are so old they don't remember the damage they did." I replied with: " ( Read more... )

Here I write again. I am not sure why. I've been journaling for years but haven't for some time now, as evidenced by this chronicle. Why write again? I don't know. All I can say is that I feel like writing about now. I should be sleeping. I don't feel like sleeping just yet.

I'm getting my last remaining one and a half wisdom teeth extracted in the ( Read more... )

"A woman wants a bad guy to be nice just for her. A man wants a nice girl to be bad just for him."
-- anonymous commenter from the internet

Way back in 1978 I understood that I believed I needed to find out things for myself, that it doesn't work to just accept what someone else tells you, unquestioningly. Interestingly enough, I realized how isolating this can be also, I think, because I wrote about this behavior as if it were a problem, a habit I needed to break. I was "too shy." ( Read more... )